September 7th is the anniversary of my second big chop! *spirit fingers* I’ve been doing some serious reflecting on my journey over the last year, and what an odyssey it has been. Here are the 3 things I have learned through this experience.
One: I know exactly who I am now.
I have been natural for six years, so this isn’t my first rodeo. However, I exclusively wore wigs for at least three of those years. In hindsight, I realize that I really didn’t know myself during this time. I didn’t think much of the wigs, and the makeup, the lashes as far as my identity was concerned. I was just a girl playing around with different styles, spicing things up. But as I dove farther down that rabbit hole, I wore my real hair out less and less, to the point where I didn’t have it out at all for longer than 24 hours during wash day. I actually resented my real hair, for how time-consuming and cumbersome it was to deal with. This ultimately made it all the easier to let go of, when it came time for the haircut. I’ve been on a journey of rediscovering myself as a woman, and I finally know who Kamrin is: beautiful, intelligent, determined, brave, and full of purpose. *Where’s the “you is kind” meme when you need it? lol*
Two: NaturallyKam finally makes sense, and has glowed up as a result.
So funny story, I started NaturallyKam as a chronicle for my natural hair journey, and I veered so far off course from that mission from day one. I felt that I was not only being dishonest with myself, but to my followers and brand as well. How can this be the brand I chose, when I wasn’t even comfortable in my own skin? I realized, in the aftermath of my haircut, that I was finally aligned with my brand for the first time. It honestly just feels amazing to say “I’m NaturallyKam” and for it all to work together. I’ve had the opportunity to work with so many brands since the cut, and attending events, parties and NYFW with my new look was an invigorating experience. (Sidebar, I actually had the cut done the same weekend I was originally supposed to attend NYFW last fall, because I wanted to be productive with that time.)
Three: I’ve never been happier.
The best way I can describe my overall feeling during this journey: euphoric. I have never felt younger, more confident, or more loved than I do right now. I’ve had my moments where I feel like a boy, or that I’m not pretty, which is normal. But the mood was constant from the moment I left my barber’s chair, that this is easily the best decision I’ve made in a very long time. It’s probably dramatic to say, but cutting my hair again changed my life. I don’t regret any of it, and would do it all over again in a heartbeat.